I want a yes or a no!

I'm a little confused right now and my heart kinda feels like its been tied into a knot. I am really tierd of getting advice from people cause even though what they are saying sounds like a really smart idea, I never take their advice. I'm not really sure what I am supposed to do right now. My whole world came to a stop. I wanna let it out but I don't wanna talk about it. Does that make any sence? Maybe I am waiting for the right moment to really express it to the person that I should. But I already have... but maybe not in the way that it hould have been expressed. Why does everything have to be so complecated. Why can't a yes just be a yes and a no a no? How long does it take to give me and answer? Expecially one that will change my whole life around and possibly break my heart.