...

Yeah when I get where I'm going,
there'll be only happy tears.
I will shed the sins and struggles,
I have carried all these years.
And I'll leave my heart wide open,
I will love and have no fear.
Yeah when I get where I'm going,
Don't cry for me down here....

But when I get where I'm going,
and I see my Maker's face.
I'll stand forever in the light,
of His amazing grace.

Weather you believed it or not you were loved by the people that mattered most and they miss you more than you could probably ever have comprehended before you took your life.

I just pray your with God now.
Rest in peace.

That feeling

When your eyes water and your heart jumps to your throat,
because you see the joy in a person after something great finally happened for them, and to someone who really deserved it.

I feel that way because I am trying to fight back tears because seeing that makes me so happy.

Finally

I have finished the last of the HP books. And I have to say that I am satisfied with how the story flowed and ended all together.
Although the Epilogue kind of made it seem that there is the possibility of a continuation.
Which would be fine by me.

on another note I'm getting pretty flustered at people calling me thinking that I am someone else. IF you listen to my voice message you will hear me say that this is NATASHA. Not Dory not Don... N A T A S H A.

I am constantly getting phone calls from the machine voice bill collectors and it's really annoying because I can't tell them that they have the wrong number! All I can do is hang up.

I am therefore going to switchover to Verizon because of the many problems I have having with my current service and my worthless RAZR. I'm going to try to get the new enV2 which looks pretty nice ( in my opinion and is supposedly not so expensive) when it comes out, which could be as late as the end of May.

So I will be getting a new phone number with it.
that is all...

I don't want to be a lifer!!!

The more and more that I think about going to school the more I get exited about it.
But the more I think about what I want to go to school for makes me scared of it.

I honestly sometimes feel like I don't have what it takes to get a good job in that field.
Everyone tells me how hard it is... it's really discouraging.
One of my parents friends told me that I shouldn't even bother going back to school at all and it's too late for me. And that I should just try to jump on the Fred Meyer Train, I don't want to be a Fred Meyer lifer though... And what an awful thing to tell me! I am not even 21 yet! how is it too late for me to go back to school?
My opinion is that it's never too late.
And I need to learn not to listen to things like that and get discouraged.


Maybe thats why I procrastinate.
I don't think that I have what it takes but for the sake of not listening to my own advice...
I'll never know if I don't try.

Right?

Step aside T-mobile I'm going to Verizon

Wow Last night I was so dizzy and tired I actually passed out on my kitchen floor.
And of course lance had to wake me up by jabbing me with his dirty foot.

But I feel a lot better now.

And I am still loving FFCC