Unfortunate events

I went to the hospital today with a group of my friends, to visit a good friend a coworker. I had a hard time looking at him. He seemed so positive, but I think that we all knew what was going on in the back of his mind.

A few days back he was in the car with mother, the light changed and as his mom drove out someone ran a red light and slammed into them, his mother died on impact. Whats really hard is the fact that his dad passed away almost three years ago.

The only positive thing that I keep telling myself is that she is in a better place and with her husband now.

In the hospital I kept having flashbacks back when I was a kid, staying behind in the hospital waiting for my dad to wake up.

And looking at this great kid who was laying there in pain knowing that he was broken not just physically but mentally broke my heart. He is a good guy and his mother was the sweetest women you would ever meet. I was having a hard time keeping tears back, so I pathetically left the room early

And I keep asking myself, Why to horrible things happen to the best of people?

Makes you realize how mortal you really are.

Blahhhhh

I always day dream about my life starting with, " once upon a time... " and getting swept off of my feet because quite frankly my life and current relationship are kind of on the rocks...

I suppose that it's nice to day dream about things but in the end it gets rather depressing knowing that there is no such thing, and certainly not for me. I feel like I'm just going in circles and trying to get out of it just ends with a door in my face and me going back to the same routine.

Sometimes my boyfriend frustrates me. Makes me feel like I'm not important, and not in the silly petty ways that I hear other girls whine about, but not enough to justify ending it in whimsical decision.

Then he does something for me that I wasn't expecting, something that actually requires him to go out of his way without my asking that is so thoughtful it makes me realize he's trying to say, "I love you babe, even if I have a hard time showing it all the time, I love you."

I love you too.

P.S. My 21 birthday last Thursday, he made it so wonderful

Disney made me cry :'(

So I was cleaning and I put it the "Little Mermaid" to have some back round noise. Then I put in disc two and watched the features, yadda yadda...

Then I watched the 7 min short story "The little Match Girl"

I got all teary eyed. It was so heart breaking. I can't believe Disney would have remade something so sad.

My 4th

So My 4th was pretty good. I had to wake up and go to work at 8am and I was off by 5...

And I bought sparklers!!
Me and Lance walk around the block (after our sparklers) and watched all the fire works.
It was pretty amazing.