Blahhhhh

I always day dream about my life starting with, " once upon a time... " and getting swept off of my feet because quite frankly my life and current relationship are kind of on the rocks...

I suppose that it's nice to day dream about things but in the end it gets rather depressing knowing that there is no such thing, and certainly not for me. I feel like I'm just going in circles and trying to get out of it just ends with a door in my face and me going back to the same routine.

Sometimes my boyfriend frustrates me. Makes me feel like I'm not important, and not in the silly petty ways that I hear other girls whine about, but not enough to justify ending it in whimsical decision.

Then he does something for me that I wasn't expecting, something that actually requires him to go out of his way without my asking that is so thoughtful it makes me realize he's trying to say, "I love you babe, even if I have a hard time showing it all the time, I love you."

I love you too.

P.S. My 21 birthday last Thursday, he made it so wonderful