So very sick and tired

My legs are killing me.

I feel trapped, and very emotional.

I don't think I can control it anymore and it scares me. I am fine everywhere else but when I am there. Everything just seems to be running in the direction of chaos and getting worse, I start losing control. I want to fall asleep and never wake up. I find more comfort in my dreams before the waking hour of when they turn to nightmares. I dwell.

But I am responsible. I know what life requires and I know that it could be worse. I try to find solutions and only find dead ends. I feel the pain of depression in the morning and anxiety at night.

All I can say is thank you God for ADD, but I need some help.