Repetition

...What a nasty thing you are.

I am in an indescribable mood right now. Not sure how I am feeling, not sure what exactly that it is that I am thinking of. I just... am.

Life is so frustrating sometimes and I am not specifically talking about my own life, but more that it is frustrating watching people make the wrong choices. Especially people you are close to. Sometimes I wish I could sit them down and make all the choices for them and tell them, "this is real life, this how it's done." But I was not build strong enough to play God.

And then I wonder why. I sometimes view life like the game of Sims. We are all walking around almost mindless and God is controlling the clicks, but if that's the case then why do we have so much freedom. Why did he create us with free will. If he knows the outcome then what is the point? Are you telling me that we are doomed to fail? Or did God give us a real opportunity to surprise even him?

We are all so unique so amazing and yet we create our own habits that send us into nothingness. Our world is lazy. I blame video games and TV. I like it just as much as the next person but where have our goals gone to? What do we strive for anymore? Everyday the murder count goes up, everyday the crime rate grows, drop outs, suicides, theft, grows. We are destroying our own and it's frustrating. I also blame it on lack of responsibility and birth control. It all starts with people who should not be parents who become so.

Because one person who doesn't give a shit raising a child in the world today, who isn't going to give a shit.