I am falling apart

I feel like one of those old puzzles you put together and when you have worked so hard and you have almost got it all figured out... you notice that there are pieces missing.
And finding those pieces are extremely difficult if not impossible.

I think I am beginning to feel depressed. My job sucks... there is no way to lightly put it. I don't get paid enough sometimes to cover my half of the bills, sometimes I feel used and unappreciated. I am paranoid and I am a klutz. I can't drive and every time I go to practice something goes wrong. I am tired all the time and I don't want to do anything, most likely because I am exhausted from work. I can't go to school because of time and money and I don't even know what I am good at to even pursue.

My life is so messed up, and I feel like I have stopped but time just keeps slipping away and before I know it I am gonna be saying... "what the hell did I do with my life?" Same routine everyday... same everything. I have goals and dreams but every time I do to accomplish something nothing works out. Every thing falls apart and I become discouraged.

I shrink back down into my little hole and live day by day and nothing is changing. I am not sure what to do anymore so I can change it.

Am I not meant to be happy? Why can't one thing go right for me so I can say "wow I am making a difference in my life." so I actually want to live it?

I want my life to come together so it will stop falling apart.