The New car smell

I asked Lance the other day if he had seen a change in me. Not physically (even though I started to work out again) but personality wise.

When we run into confrontations I not longer yell of cry or dwell on the hurtful things that were said, because I have realized that when you become close to someone you sometimes say things that you don't mean. And you have to become the bigger person sometimes to say that you were wrong because most of the time horrible words were exchanged from both sides.

My dad always used to tell me that I never got to have a "normal" childhood and I had to grow up faster than most children because of what my past was like. Maybe that's why I am sucha kid now. But I am growing out of it. Yeah I will always love coloring with crayons, playing video games and with my transformers toys, but I can happily say that I see a change in my personality. I feel almost as though I found a new strength that God has been trying to show me all this time. A confidence that I have been needing to find for quite a while now.

And most of all being able to like myself for who I am and not to beat myself up for what I am not. Before I would aways put so much effort in trying to get people to like me. Now it's you better like me or take a hike cuz I'm not changing for you.

And I just wanted to share with with all of you because if you don't always feel this way then you should because you all are wonderful and beautiful just the way you are. Just the way God made you.

much love,
natasha