It's true what they say..

That you never really miss someone until they are gone... I just hope that I am not the only one feeling that way in this situation.

I am giving him his space because this is what he wanted and for a while there It was what I wanted as well. Now I am not so sure.

I started taking natural sleeping pills to help me sleep at night and they really work. I find myself falling asleep and waking up anywhere from 6 and a half to 8 hours later. I feel amazing, I'm more energized and I can think more clearly.

I also realized how in love I am with lance and that hes not totally at fault for the way our relation ship is at the moment. I have not been great to him either lately due to my own stress and insomnia. I have been taking it out on him a lot, and now I feel like it's too late...

He's not sure that he even really loves me anymore, and that alone breaks my heart. I am not sure how to handle it because as of right now I can't imagine my life without him. I'm staying with a friend for at least a week to give him his space.

I took him for granted and I am so sorry.
All I can pray for now is that he can love me again...
or that my heart will be able to withstand it's break.

I love you, please forgive me

What makes this even harder for me, is today is our 3 year anniversary... so many awesome memories torment me right now...